Thursday, April 30, 2009

There is no better feeling in the world than being pregnant.

This was my belly around four months pregnant. Sadly, this is one of only a few pictures that were taken of my growing belly. I don't know why exactly. I remember wanting to document my pregnancy well and time just flew by it seemed. I remember feeling the "flutter" for the first time while I was driving in the car. At first I thought, that felt weird! What was that?! Then it hit me, everyone says the first feeling of the baby feels like a little butterfly is in you, and that is exactly what I felt. I called my hubby I was so excited! Then the "fun" flutters turned to discomfort soon enough. I was due August, the absolute worst time of year to be pregnant in Arizona. I was miserable and just wanted to be done with being pregnant.

After I had Jalyn via c-section as he was breech, they determined that I was in heart failure (as most of you know). Almost immediately a high risk OB entered the room and told us that we would never be able to have children naturally again. To do so would place my life in extreme jeopardy.

If I had only known this would be my one and only time to feel those flutters, embrace the ugly maternity clothes, document my growing belly, enjoy the sometimes painful kicks, well, I would've savored this moment in time just a bit more.

You never know what life has in store for you. Will this pregnancy be your first, last and only? Or will you be incredibly blessed to have children naturally and easy as many times and you choose to do so?

Each and every one of us has our own path in life and I've made peace with the road God has chosen for us. If the tragedies in our life hadn't happened, then I wouldn't have the most adorable little Kyrgyz baby sleeping in the room down the hall. So are tragedies really tragedies or are they something to rejoice upon?

Either way, if you are blessed enough to have the chance to experience pregnancy, enjoy it. Embrace it. Document it.


***Dedicated to my sissy, Jese. I love you and I'm over the moon thrilled for you and Jay. May God bless you and keep mom and baby safe***


  1. Oh my............With tears flowing down my cheeks after reading the "post" I see the two most beautiful girls on earth at the end of it - my daughters. I am so blessed to have these two girls in my life. The joy (most generally:) they bring into my life is incredible. I can't thank you enough Kelli for the two beautiful grandchilden that you gave me and for you Jese the one that is on its way. I thank God everyday for you two and the joy you bring me.
    Love you both, Mom

  2. Funny I should stumble across this I am lazing on my sofa not feeling all that fabulous and thinking the baby sure does have a funny sense of humor in that he makes me starve and then miserable when I eat! Also, just a couple of days after I FINALLY broke down and took a belly picture for my husband! I really and truly thought that adoption was going to be the only way to have children in my home, and then when that didn't work out and miraculously got pregnant...well, I'm doing my best not to complain and remember you are right--it is an amazing blessing and miracle to be pregnant, and it's nice to have reminders of persective when having down days! Of course, it's pretty early, so I have a feeling I'll have a few more, but thanks for reinforcing that I may hate pictures now, they will be cherished memories soon enough!
    Congrats to your sister!

  3. , you are correct :)Kelli,

    What an amazing post...your tiny belly... I love it. Thank you so much for everything, All the advice and love you have givin me through the years...I am truly blessed to call you my sister. Everyone has a gardian angel.. I belive you are mine!! I love you too and thanks for always thinking of me. I promise to take tons of photo's and to enjoy every minute of this pregnancy... Love you TONS

  4. Great post, Rie, and so true....A good reminder.

    Now, on a lighter note, judging from the looks of your pic, and if I were to take a pic of myself, I'd have to conclude that I, too, am 4 months along. Heck, maybe even 5! Darn those late night non-pregnancy related cravings! :)