Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Random Ramblings

So you found me eh??? Being back here feels a bit like coming home.....I feel comfortable here.
I don't have much to say, really. I feel like poop most days as my joints ache, burn, swell and become stiff. Putting two feet on the ground in the morning simply takes too much effort and energy at times.
Docs think it's RA (rheumatoid arthritis) and now their out to prove it. I just want medicine to make it better already. Feeling crummy can be down right depressing---especially when the children's laughter echos down the hall and into my bedroom and I am reminded of what my body is keeping me from enjoying.
I am counting the days until I can see my mama and daddy, feel their warm hugs and enjoy that beautiful Michigan breeze. We are ALL hubby and Sultan this time! The kiddo's are beyond thrilled and I'm counting the days til I can wrap my arms around this turkey:
Just look at those baby blues---and to think I haven't held her since she was newly born (insert sad face here). I miss out on so much being here in Arizona, away from my Michiganders. My mom, dad, sis, bro, aunts and friends all do their best to call me often, fill me with updates, throw Peyton on the phone so that I may sing with her---all in an effort to help me feel closer to home. I crave the support of having my mother live close to me, especially these days. I need her more than ever. Countless days I would have called and asked her to come sit with me, talk to me, love on my babies. I would have begged her to get me out of the house and have lunch together, something, just to help me feel human again. Then again, I know I wouldn't have to beg as she is always one step ahead knowing just what I need.
It gets so lonely here in AZ while fighting an illness when all you want is your mom, who just happens to be over 2000 miles away. Melissa, two rock! Your support is unyielding and your friendship only grew stronger during difficult times and will never be forgotten.
I don't always have pleasant thoughts to write about, therefore I haven't written. But with the support of my friends and particularly my Aunt Daleann, I will write----even when I feel I have nothing to say that anyone would want to read.


  1. If I were a bit closer, I would love to help out. There is probably no way that you are going to get to DC for Heritage weekend but we would all love to see you there. At some point, I would love to hear Sultan's story(if you would like to share).

  2. Kelly thanks for writing again! I'm also curious to hear about Sultan. It made me cry to hear of your pain, but don't stop writing. I want to hear how you really are. I know how much a mothers hugs, love, and time can do for you. I'm glad that you will get to go home soon. See u soon. Love Rebecca :)

  3. Kelli,

    I am sorry that you are going through to so much. I'll be praying for you to get some relief, QUICKLY! I second what Marnie said, we'd love to see you in D.C. if you are feeling up to it. And I'd love to hear about Sultan as well. God Bless!